nothing more, nothing less.

So, like usual, someone decided to shit on my life basically. I know I'm a good person, but it seems as though bad stuff only happens. I'm going to quote Charlie Brown now; I'm afraid of being happy because whenever I am, something bad always happens. I am not moving now, I unfortunatley have to stay in this crap place, living where I don't want to live, but I really do try to feel greatful everyday, even though I just want to leave ! I miss my friends, and family, when I cry, it makes me seem weak and honestly when you cry, people don't feel sorry for you, they just want you to shut the fuck up. I kind of fucked up, I can never do anything right. All we want is to feel loved, and to be happy no matter what. I'm trying to be positive and happy, but I'm not strong all the time. Everytim I get to see my little buddy, I have to leave him, the feeling is, someone putting my broken heart back together, then just ripping it out again. I love him so much, and really messed up things. I just need a miracle, or to be saved. I miss my life. Something, anything, anyone. Please save me.

I'm Moving !

Goodbye Maple Ridge, Hello Whistler.

I have never been to Whistler, nor have I ever been snowboarding or skiing yet I am now moving there in two weeks time. This shall be a very fun adventure. Good luck to me and my two guy friends for us getting a job and for it all to work out. We will create many memories and take lots of pictures. I am so excited. I feel like I am starting fresh, a whole new life ahead of me. I can hardly wait, I'm getting all excited and we aren't even there yet. We're all still on phase one. It is supposed to be for a short period of time, but I know in my heart that I might not even come back to this place. I have lost everything, my family basically, I have nothing to lose.
I'm sure all of you are off to school now, I would really like to hear all about it, you're lives are for sure busy now. I wish all of you the best of luck ! I love you all. Please keep in touch with me, any way that you can.

I apologize for all the cruel things I said about you, I just figured that friends shouldn't do what you did to me. I have been thinking, you are all too special to me to lose. I hope you accept my apology. I will never forget you girls.

What a shame to put someone that you are supposed to love unconditionally out of your life just like that ! I have felt like a piece of garbage before, but never as bad as this. I thought you loved me, and I thought I knew what love was, I was wrong, is this love ? If so, it doesn't feel like what I always dreamed it would be. I have completely lost everything in a matter of minutes. I sometimes think it's for the best, but at times I think to myself, "am I doing things right, is this how it's supposed to be for me?" Materialistic objects I have no care for, but the one and only thing that I will miss the most is my bestfriend. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you, but you were in my thoughts and I will see you very soon ! I want you to know that everything happens for a reason, you are the sweetest person I have ever known. I miss your cute smile and adorable laugh. I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Be strong, stay happy, never stop being a little social butterfly. Watch our shows for me, email me always, call whenever you need to talk. I will see you as much as I can. I hope you read this. I love you soo much buddy. You will be the most important person in my life, forever.

Through all the years I kind of knew that this would happen, well it has before several times, just never this permanent. I guess it's time to grow up, and get my life started. I love you Mom, but this time you took it way too far. All of my stuff out of the house, crying to me, but not even caring. Not allowing me to come to my own brother's birthday celebration. I strongly believe that you will nolonger be in my life anymore. I miss you Mommy.

Time to get my tan on.

G O O D B Y E PASTY W H I T E BODY.

O'hai, BEST FRIEND !?

the begining of the end.

nothing but..   DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA.

How dare you put someone else down, when you should really deal with your own "freaky spastic" issues. You just make me laugh, of how pathetic you are to have no guts to say all of your nasty word vomit, to our faces. Clearly you have made no effort, therefore there is no need for anyone else to waste their time. It's a little bit like a doctor Seuss book, we don't act like friends, we don't like each others attitudes, we don't hang out or make plans---doesn't look like a friend, doesn't act like a friend, I'm guessing we aren't friends, and never really were. You hurt my best friend, and you hurt me. Word of advice, don't assume that people cannot do things with you, when you haven't even made the effort to ask. Everyone is busy, don't use that as your excuse for not being a friend, I have seen her, why haven't you. Leave her alone, and stop harassing her with long unnecessary messages. That apology she mistakenly gave you, I take it back for her. I know that not everyone can get along all the time, but it's kind of funny how you are the one that always seems to open your mouths and complain. Who's whiny ? There is so much I've wanted to say to you, (but I haven't) since you have done everything in your power to make me out as the bad guy. Go have a sexy lesbian fest together !

Now, grow up, eat your words and swallow your drama.

I'll never forget you, I promise, fly with the angels Grandma.

Good things come to those who wait, the power of positive thinking, thank you. I got myself the full-time job at Hopcotts. It's going to take some time getting used to it, and getting the hang of things. I am now making money, and I have some time to think about what I want to do with my life and who I want to be. I am planning to move out at the end of August. Dene, I know one day soon, I will be able to truly say that I love you, but until then, I ruv you is perfect. I want to spend forever with you. I'm trying my best to let my walls down for you. I honestly believe you won't hurt me, but there is the pain from before still in my heart. I can hardly wait until it's gone. I look forward to sleeping in your arms tonight, and always. 

Being told you're beautiful and sexy really does make you feel like it, even more so, if you know it's true. I am filled with so much happiness knowing that someone cares about me and makes me feel so amazing. I was told that someone could tell how happy I was now, I got a feeling I always want to feel. Only one bad minor thing happened to me, my tongue ring had to be taken out since it was done wrong like all my other piercings. To top things off, I got a yeast infection in my mouth because of it. Two weeks it'll be back, and unfortunately so will the pain, AGAIN. 

What can I say, you live and learn. 

Example.

- Can I dip you in chocolate?

untitled.

Graduated now, hell yes ! I feel that now because school is over, I can actually be the person I want to be. I have realized that I don't have any real friends, which became clear right after the 29th. Who did you think you were fooling ? She didn't want to believe it, but she secretly and sadly knew it was true. You are all glued to the ass, and will never let anyone else share your ass. You think it's going to last forever, you're living in a fantasy, you'll grow up and move on. Not a single hello', and why should I have to stoop down to your nasty behavior and be the first. You were just rude. I knew this would happen, because we were never friends, nor did you ever accept my friendship. I don't really care for you all to much, but I guess I wish you a good life. This was necessary. Since when you post, it has nothing to do with anyone but the four. Peace to you.

Fly away old friends ' old life.

"I love you like a love song baby", I'm so happy I met you , I had my whorish phase, but you just make me want to be a better person overall. I said goodbye and that was because of you, so for that I thank you. I love your smile, and how goofy you are. I hope to someday call you mine. I'm waiting, but can I wait forever. & I truly love that you like me too. Laughing with you is the best thing I feel lately, laugh and smile with me always, please. I want you more than I want anything in my life right now. I know mine, you'll be. <3

I am revamping my image. Dressing however I want to dress, no matter what anyone says. Cause I don't really give a fuck about what other people think, unless they're important to me. I already was crazy, but I think I'm still crazy, now with a little extra on the side ! I got my tongue pierced. My millions of tattoos are next, along with my kitty ring and nose. Summer will have no regrets, but it isn't just summer it's the beginning of my life. My mommy keeps thinking of moving to the states, and before I was skeptical, but now go for it, pack up and go ! I am looking for that job, and once it comes to me, I am out of here. I love my life and I am enjoying all that it has to offer. I toke, I drink, I love, I laugh, I cry, I scream, I just live, and all that shit. 
Do what makes you happy. I do what makes me happy. Open your eyes to this reality.














         
                                           say hello to the new me. 
                            "I believe in the ugly truth, rather than the beautiful lie.